...What I want for us...

 I don't want to pretend to be wealthy and actually have nothing, I want to be wealthy even if we have little!!

Its so big, I can't see the end...

 With my own eyes 👀 I saw the "Red Sea" opened with a path through for me, and as I reached the other side the water tumbled back in and destroyed my enemies!!!

Then standing on the edge of the "Jordan River" in the middle of flood season, I invited you to step into the water with me... and with delight a sweet path opened up through the water!!! Now as we glance back our hearts beat fast with gratitude!!

Standing here with you by my side, in this beautiful land, I gaze ahead... now we are standing at the Ocean's side... a part of me asks for the ocean itself to part, and yet this I know is not God way, for to sink or swim is the day that almost is here. See without the oceans we couldn't travel to new lands, without the oceans we couldn't float a big ship of our very own, without the oceans there'd be no waves, without the waves we never would ride high, without the depths that can drown us we would never be able to find the treasure buried on the oceans floor, and without the storms on the sea we'd never hear His voice telling them to "be calm". 

So, my love, as we look forward to the ocean ahead my soul trembles but yet the light I see, for the one who made the oceans big and broad is the one who made the doors that keeps them in their bounds!! Let's build a boat, let's build a raft- maybe it only starts out that small but let's float the ocean and go on a voyage to find new lands!! For this ocean God has given us as a gift, even though my heart is not used to seeing it, you see God made the ocean to keep us close, not to drown us, not to separate us but that we may float together on the ocean that represents the vastness of His heart and love for us as He leads us to our perfect home!!! ❤️😘

Speechlessness Talking...

  To be laughed at, to be called a fool, to have motive questioned, to be advised to move on, told to invest the resources in my own future! Asked "what if nothing ever comes of it??"

 I gave it all freely, no strings attached, just a gift from my heart for the treasure I saw!! Yes, great longing I had for something more, but to bribe and to buy I would not! 

Now what can I say or what can I do, for all that I did seems so small, so insignificant? 

Wave after wave comes rushing in bringing back more than I ever gave! How is this possible? An investment without a contract! "I love you" given with no demand of return! 

Now more received than I ever gave, how is this possible? But possible I know it is for it is the reality I now live! 

With grateful heart I bow my head to my King and I say thank you, thank you as I hold the hand of my best friend in mine and we bow together before our King and say thank you together!! 🙏🙏🙏❤️❤️❤️

Unlocked...

The Familiar sound of the deadbolt bar crossing into the door jamb with a semi-smooth clunk! Security, safety, peace of mind?

Keeping those safe on the inside and keeping those out who have no place there. Or is this true?

For years did the deadbolt keep me safe? Or for years did the deadbolt keep my fears safe?

I unlocked the door and I left it unlocked, in fact I left it partly open-not for all to welcome but for the One and one who are welcome! 

Now, instead of locking my fears inside, safely and securely while all others remain shut out- with door unlocked and partly open my fears have no place to hide, I see your silhouette stand in the door as you walk into the room, no fear of discovery have I, for all in its perfect time, nothing I have to hide!

With no protection of locks and bars my fears flee out the front door running down the lane into oblivion, they tumble and fall, how silly they look now; I don't even wave goodbye for your hand is wrapped in mine!

I unlocked the door and to lock it again I cannot. With respect and virtue I know you will walk in, and already have! 

This room I call my heart and the door to it is unlocked, the physical world of mine with real doors and bars is unlocked to 👸 for to shut you out I refuse, no fear I have  that you will overstep- for virtue is your middle name and our King is our safety with His word we will live in peace of mind!!!❤️❤️🙏🙏

Unashamedly...

 Unashamedly my greatest drive and joy is investing in the success of those in my world!!!!

🙏🙏❤️❤️💫💫🤩🤩

If this is wrong, then may God have mercy on me and change my heart. Otherwise may God grant me the grace to stand tall though few approve! And perfect my craft and make it stronger in God's perfect plan!!🙏🙏✔️

I Appeal to Heaven...

 Like stepping on to a different planet, like an auditory specialist going deaf, like all my best dreams being in a foreign language that I do not know, like an Olympic swimming drowning on dry land. I do not know what to do. Like the gates of hell opened up wide, like the most compelling opportunity to fail, like almost  every insecurity ever know to me raising their voice to question my hope. I don't know what questions to ask. 

But this I hold, my hope, my confidence, my requests to my King, my knowledge that 👸 is the best and only one like her

Why is it that as one is freed from pressure, another becomes captive to the unknown??

This much I must confess freely... our King knows what He is doing so I cling to Him with nothing but the teeth of my heart and look to the day when face to face, hand in hand, arm in arm, and side by side we stand as one with the three of us!! 

Worth the effort? Worth the fight? Worth the growth? Worth the risk? Absolutely 💯 ✔️

This too will somehow make tomorrow better because God is King of today and tomorrow!!🙏🙏

I am here, and not going anywhere so much as God grants me grace to stand!! To the one whom is my best friend... I love YOU!!!

Could it be...???

 Could it be... Two of the most amazing hugs any human could give to another human!!! ❤️  Could it be I received both?? Why yes indeed I did!!!! 

Could it be though that I keep taking? That I keep longing for the absolute best, without giving my absolute best??

Have I ever given a hug to the most amazing woman ever?? I fear I have not... I fear I always receive... Yes, it is safer this way, I spare the awkwardness of rejection, or awkwardness of timing. But I ask again have I ever given a hug to the most beautiful woman in the world?? And if no, why?? Is not it my fear of her fear that makes it so?? She is most lovely and perfect in her timing, her hugs are always just right so I never could replace them even if I tried. But why would I not at least try to give a gift freely given?? I accept her gift freely given!! 

Where are you my reader?? Have you dared to give, have you dared to give a hug to your best friend? Have you dared to give a hug to those who mean more than life to you? Have you dared to despise the fear and seek the glory that comes from Above? Not for selfish gain but for genuine, honest, and right motive?

I know not how, but I shall not leave you to attempt this on your own, my best fried!👸 for we shall dare to live and prosper even if in so doing there is risk of failing!! That is a risk I must take!! For without it, do not we die??